It is impossible forego voice is also not out to the sound of high heels moving away. One morning, rather than a wake up from a dream, I was to think it’s a dream from there. As a means of escape from reality. I have been erased from the memory the presence of one person from that day.
Then a few years, living conditions will change several times, I had a dream each time. People who have been erased from the memory appeared in front of me only once. That person said among no sense of reality.
“There is my life for me now. So, have not been to need this child”
When I erased the presence of the The human, the presence of I also erased.
The human continue to live in the memory repainted. As means. The human are suffering when the function does not work.
I could not ask for love to invisible present. The sound of high heels moving away even love someone did not disappear.
Even now.
It is the storage “people of the mother”.
Remembers the face and voice , father disappeared forsaken me, and strange adult who came to pick, _ grandparents brought up then. Voice and face does not change even in a dream. But, the storage of mother only shrill sound high heels. Even in a dream.
Noticed the presence of me little in my mind, it was from being rejected by the the mother.
Little me in the mind is still scared to leave footsteps in the morning of 12-year-old while holding the knee.